is it tt the older we get, the harder it is for us to express ourselves freely and keep everything inside us? it is onli when we are too drunk to rise up the def line again then we start to pour everything out to whoever is in front of us?

y is it tt ppl wants to juz keep things to themselves hence making the life harder when it is already hard enuff?

seriously i'm rather afraid of ending up like my grandma. not to say tt her life is bad, but then i juz afraid of ending up being alone. to be frank, i'm not a person tt cant live alone, but then again, in my older yrs tt will tend to change ba. who in this world dun wan to find a soul mate tt could spend the whole life together? when will i be able to find mine?

is wine a solution to kill time and to make 1 forget bout the fact tt they are lonely? its fine for youngster but for elderly, its nothing but juz another hazard as they could juz fall. wat am i suppose to do when this thing happens? wat if i'm not at hm or i didn't managed to wake up? somethings are better left not wondering.