having a total new feeling... something tt i believe is gd but at the same time bad.

i wonder,,,

it is the harder i try, the more i will mess or screw things up?

looks like i juz screw things up big time... it might nv get back to how it will be again... can onli blame myself

this yrs target

been 6 months since i last wrote in this site... now tt i think of it it seems so long.. haha. once again it shows i am a man of little words. cny juz past for like 2 wks n i have been slacking since then.. looks like i need to have a board in my rm saying "onli need to slog for 1 more yr!!!!" haha. something my grandma has been telling me ALL the time, since she is worried tt i am taking things too easy w/o any targets

speaking of targets, i wan to start saving liao, 3k in 1 yr. haha. possible? since i cut down my transport spending from 210 to 90+ think shld be able ba? but it seems i always dunno where did i spent my money, they are like juz gone like tt :( i need to start keeping track.

for the past few wks, i think there is some slight changes in me... i have become more talkative in front of others... ppl that i am close to tt is. i am able to start joking n not feeling "shy" at least tt is wat i think.

experience something during the recess wk, had dinner with a xb's family in the chalet, the atmosphere was something i nv get to experience, not like things are hostile at home, but its always me n my grandma, dun think there was even once where i ate with my parents... since i was brought up by my grandma for as long as i can rmb... so it actually set me thinking if that was the feeling one will have... but still i am very happy with my current life of meals with grandma... juz tt tt little piece is something tt is missing in my 24yrs up-to-date life...

stupid driver!

came across a stupid driver on thursday... he tot he own the road... 1st time he changed lane, he did not bother checking blindspot, which resulted i have to give way to him by breaking quite hard... lucky no car behind me. afte changing from my right to left, he signal tt he is gg to change from left to right (to in front of me again). this time again, without checking blindspot n the relative velocity of ME.. he juz cut in. this time i break PLUS i press my horn n nv let go for a gd whole 4~5 seconds make sure tt bast*rd realise tt he does not own the whole road. idiotic!!

its not like i gave way to him once n i have to give way to him all the time. although i am driving a van, it does not make saloon car any higher class than me. those tt sat my car b4 will know i very give way to others as long as u signal n change lane PROPERLY..

today completed studying 1 chapter of 316 n tut 6 of 316. felt so like completed something... haha. less than a month to go b4 final term start... its time i start to buck up liao...

but, ice skate later!!! HAPPY! enjoy b4 gg to books. haha

things happened so fast... it has been a wk plus since my father passed away. life goes on as usual.. surprisingly, its more like a load off my shoulder n both my brother n i thinks its the best for him to pass away.. cancer does make one suffer. so y stay alive n suffer when we know tt there is no cure? its really painfully to see him turn into bones from his old self... he did go away peacefully from the staff in the nursing hm. but then we were not by his side when he pass away. if onli i could go back to tt time.. i even made plans to visit him on sat morning.. n he could not wait til sat...

there are things tt once u missed it, its gone forever.

中秋节!!!

let me see... it has been closed to 17yrs since i last took a lantan. haha. today had a recap of my old childhood. THANKS AJ. haha. maybe coz it was children's day so today's outing was to see who has no 童年... haha. went kite flying at marina barrage then followed by dinner at lau pa sat... n ending the day by playing with lantan n sparkles at merlion park (or rather a corner of merlion park) had so much fun. think i brought the cam-whoring of dbz to the outing oso. although not so obvious yet. haha.

after a wk plus at hm alone... i realised tt the hardest job on earth is housewife/househusband... so many things to do... cooking, washing mopping, watering the plants n washing the dirty clothes... its like everyday is filled with chores. 佩服 those mothers who has been doing the same things over n over for yrs... although i like the cooking part... but cook for myself to eat is a bit sad. haha. now open my invitation to all: come my house n eat? i cook. haha...

1st dance concert

went to my very 1st dance concert... at VCH. enjoyed with the ppl who were there with me. overslp while waiting for the time to pass n thereofre dun have time to dress properly... every1 dressed so nice over there... lets go for more! haha.

2 more yrs b4 i can really dun care bout exams... JIAYOU!!!!